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I am a good mother! Or am I?
“Through
life, having a FEARLESS attitude (recognizing fear and facing them) is
liberating
Seeking to
live a fear free life is a lifelong commitment as long as the “unknown” is
relevant and true in our path”
~Rose
Sanderson
Have you ever
found yourself wide awake, at any given moment or in an environment, having
scary thoughts or "worst case scenario" endings? Do you have
nightmares during the day? I do..... and most of the time it has to do with my
children, their where-abouts and their well-being. I like to take the
philosophical approach to understanding why my mind dwells on certain
questions; questions like, "What if my kids get kidnapped?", or
"What if my kids get abused?" Then there are the worries that include
my hubby, like; "What if they get into a bad accident?", "What
if I don't show them enough love?", or "What if they're not
happy?" However, no matter how rational I try to be, I can't seem to
understand the random dark thoughts. Neither do I understand why they seem
to surface at the oddest times...
Far worse than
these elusive fears, is my fear of not being a good mother.
I am a good
mother, I am a good mother, I am a good mother...
Why am I chanting
this? Who am I trying to convince?
This one thing I
do know; I live this love and I welcome the commitment!
I AM A
GREAT MOTHER!
I observe and
learn from what I see around me. I am also in awe of mothers who are masters of
their time and are able to be actively present in all moments
of their child's life. While I 'm in awe of them, do they see me
as a "bad mother", due to the fact that I don't have the same
availability (of time) to my kids?
Children only
know what they are taught and what they live. Their everyday lives are filled
with normalcy; their version of normalcy may differ from that of their
little friends, however, it will not differ so much as to make them
question your motherhood. Especially
when your motherhood is laced with love.
Still we question
ourselves and each other. There is always judgment out there, positive or
negative. There will always be someone looking, lurking, analyzing and judging
your actions. That difference among us will have you labeled as either a
"good mom" or a "bad mom". You'll either come across as a
"deserving" or "unworthy" mother. You'll be judged against
society, and compared to images and misconceptions promoted in all forms
of media and entertainment.
I need to
confront my fear of not being a good mom, because I AM a GREAT MOM. I need
to immediately stop worrying about not being good enough, not giving enough,
not teaching enough, not loving enough, not listening enough, not playing
enough, not hugging enough, not being present enough, not being lenient enough,
or simply not being enough.... because I am committed to being all and enough
for my children.
The many kisses,
"I Love You's" and hugs that I get daily, tell me the story that I
need to remember when I'm confronted with "The Fear".
I'm not a perfect
mother, but I am a good one. That's my reality.
“Intense Love does not measure…it just gives.”
~ Mother Teresa
What about you, Do you have a fear of being inadequate as a mother? Do you fear not being enough? And for those who are not mothers yet, is "the fear" stopping you from being a mother?
To all the mothers out there, give yourself credit for a job well done!
RosieSandz
RosieSandz
