"If a story is in you, it has got to come out."
William Faulkner
I was sent an anonymous message on my blog asking; why do I feel the need to write so much and share my opinion on everything? Ummm…
My first reaction was to take the question
in a very negative way (and my mind did go all the way up in there!), but then
when I started to think about a “tasty” reply, it dawned on me how legitimate the
question was and re-thought taking it negatively.
Maybe it was because many times I had asked
myself:
Am I intruding?
Am I bothering?
Am I sharing too much?
Am I too present?
Someone once commented with, “Rose, you are
a prolific writer.” I took it as a compliment because I knew who it was coming
from. I knew that it was only a measure of love sent my way…
But sometimes I wonder…sometimes I question
myself. Is being overly creative, at times, more of a nuisance; taking away the
depth and meaning of my stories?
I’m not a “fictional” writer (I don’t have
the imagination required). I write from personal experiences; I write base off
emotions I feel towards something or someone. It works because most of the time,
these emotions coincide with a message or a moral to the story…to myself!
The aim in my writing is never to intrude,
bother, be too present, share when not asked, or to teach anything… it is
simply for the meaning and mostly for
the love of it…
It is a way for me to see more clearly into
a situation and present another perspective.
Dylan Thomas said when someone asked him
what message he was trying to deliver in one of his plays “Message? Message? What am I? A bloody postman?” LOL…
“I’m not trying to deliver a message, I’m
writing about the direction my moral compass takes me and the why to certain
actions. I’m writing about the message to myself. I like to think that I’m
unique but I know that out of the 6 billion + humans on this earth, there’s
bound to be at least a handful that think, act, and feel the way I do. And in
return, I’m interested in how the rest of the world thinks, feel and acts in
the same given situation”.
The reason why I can’t take offense to the
question (and this unless, of course, someone bluntly tells me, “RosieSandz you
suck! Enough already…” even that I would have to respectJ!) is because I know most of you who take the time to read, or are
receiving my notifications and updates, are friends and people who have known
me for many many years. Most of you are rightfully taken back by this “new
side” of me. Believe me when I say, I’m not trying to provide moral guidance (I
have lots of personal clean-up to do before I even contemplate the thought…). I, myself, am still working on being consistent in practicing my lessons
learned. Laying it down on cyber-paper is more therapeutic for me than catered
for anyone else’s enlightenment.
I do it for the love of it… Hope I answered
your question…
