Monday, September 17, 2012

The “mantras” of My Life, part 1… I am that I am

I have 3 “mantras” that I’m learning to discipline myself to live by; “I am that I am”, “Carpe Diem” and “Do unto others”…
My next 3 posts are going to be dedicated to explaining my reasons for choosing each one of those “mottos”. They all assist in framing the person I ultimately NEED to be.

"I am that I am"

“I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be,
I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am”

~John Newton
It’s so simple and yet so complicated…

For all of you Theologians out there, you’ll appreciate the next few sentences. In the Bible, when Moses was sent to free the Children of Israel from Pharaoh’s cruel dictatorship, he had an interesting dilemma. He went into self-doubt, and ultimately found himself incapable of the task at hand. He cited problems with speech and fear specifically. At the climax of the discourse, he asked God; “Who should I say sent me?” God responded, “Tell him I am sent you.” This is not, by any means, a religious blog, but there’s value in that one line. God was basically telling him that, what I am cannot be explained. What I am is bigger than a name that I call myself, an action that I’ve done, or what you’ve ever heard about me. I am that I am.
As the day rises, I am conscious that I am all that I am and will be only what I make myself to be… If we could only learn to truly value the individuals that we are, this world would be infinitely better. I’m not suggesting that we walk around in a condescending manner, telling people that who we are can’t be explained, due to the fact that we are immortal and better than them. What I am suggesting is; have the God-given confidence that makes us unique and never sell yourself short, even when others don’t understand you. We are in the making.

Knowing, understanding, and accepting who and what I am today means not only embracing all my qualities (just as much as all my flaws) but also the ego in me and the relevance of “it” in my life. Believing that I am that I am made me accept the person I am and not wish to be another. It has made me realize that having an ego is not negative, it’s a blessing… it is the “I” that will always cheer for me…and we all need that! And now I can dare; I can make bigger, bolder choices because at the root of it all and in spite of it all, I love who I am. Why don’t you just take a few moments and pat yourself on the back for making it this far. We’ve all been through so much, and some more than others. It might have taken all the strength you had just to be here today, and for that you should understand your innate greatness.

I have realized that I don’t have to alter myself for anyone. I can add layers to who I am and add value to who I am while on the road to finding my life’s true meaning BUT I don’t stress about it or let it govern me because I LOVE who I am. At some point in our lives, we all seek acceptance, approval and try to fit in where we think we need to be or want to be in order to be happy. But really, doesn’t happiness in life start with the love of self? We should be our biggest self-motivational speakers. Isn’t there joy in realizing and being able to say (in a genuine way and from an unpretentious place), “This is me, take me with no expectations; as I am. This is all I have and need to give”…. There’s an old Southern saying that , “I’m not what/where I want to be, but I thank God that I’m not what/where I used to be!” Never discount the progress you’ve made thus far….

When you have determined and accepted who you are, than you can work on who you want to be. I have learned that skipping steps in the process only ends in failure. True development lies in the road of acceptance. The projected life won’t be worth living unless the today is defined and loved…only then the choices we make for our future become stronger.

Analyse your origin, where you came from and the values you were taught and innate behaviour. Visualize the ultimate ending of your life and in doing so, you need to know your worth; you need to ascertain what your original potential was/is and where you are on the road to achieving it. Do this before getting to the end of the road and still be able to say… I am that I am and I love me

 To shaping yourself...

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