“... It’s a blessed thing to
love
and feel loved in return.”
~ E.A. Bucchianeri
Last night in our home...
I have to pack. I'm off (again) for 4 days,
which means my babies also have to pack for 4 days. This new job forces us to
reorganize our everyday schedules in a way that makes it work; I’ve learned
that humour is my best ally. The running joke is that now I'm a visitor in my
own home... The kids have now 2 primary residences, since they have been now
adopted by my brother and SISTER (in-law). This all happened without the hubby
or I knowing, seeing as how we are always between plane, work and project... (Smile)
So last night, we were all running around
(specifically me running after them), making sure they had packed up all that
they’ll need for the next 4 days. That includes cross country gear, golf gear,
professional day school clothes, long sleeves, short sleeves, pants, enough
socks, etc.... and they were running around, trying to stay out of my path...
Off they go... Daddy is going to drop them
to their other home after I give them a never ending amount of kisses and
hugs... I stood at the front door, flickering the porch light for more
goodbyes... Tears falling down my cheeks... I miss them so... My babies are
growing... They are okay... I then pack my own things for my trip... Its
midnight… I turn the lights off…
At 4:30am, my alarm goes off. Up and
running again with the hubby to see me off...
"Our life is a mess," I said to
him.
“I love it," he said. "Mom and
Dad making things happen... I love it!" “But you and I are always tired...
we don't have time for just me and you," I replied. "I didn't say it
was perfect, but I love it because we are building our perfect... I love to see
you go because I can't wait to see you come back... I love you," he said,
all in a breath.
And I believe him...
“I love you too,” I said. I then gave him a
kiss and we parted ways; not before uttering my favorite phrase, "Well,
don’t do anything I wouldn't do!”
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it
does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is
not easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in
evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always
hopes, and always perseveres. Love never fails.” - I Corinthians 13:4-8a
This here; the “me and him” we are
currently living, has been through all that a regular relationship can go through. It
absolutely ranges from the highest highs (and thank God for the plenitude of
those) to some lows (thank God for the lessons learned while overcoming these).
And for me to be sitting here on this flight, taking me away from my loved ones
- with a heart filled with serenity, I feel as at this moment of my life I have
fulfilled MY definition of love...
MY
DEFINITION OF LOVE...
I don't know if one can really define
love... It is so personal to each of us that even though we hear, speak and
read about it, I don't think we relate to the words we read or someone’s
description of it, until we feel it or live it based on our needs. Why love
can't be defined or be understood? Because, when the person to whom you are
explaining it has never experienced it, how will they ever understand it? And
maybe because what fulfils you represents a world of difference to what someone
else seeks. Anyways, how the heart that experiences love be able to describe it?
There is so much that goes into that love that I believe only your partner in
that journey can understand you, understand your definition of love. You can
only give someone an idea about love, about your love.
So here it is for me what love is...among the many things love can be... Love should strive
for forever, love will allow forgiveness, and love will keep you finding the
right path for each other. Love doesn't run away when things get “real”. Love
keeps you fighting for yours. Love never gives up or loses faith. Love endures
through every circumstance. Love can stand the test of time if you are in it
together with the goal of wanting the best for and of each other.
It will stand the test of time if there is
mutual respect for the individuals we are... Love will create indelible
memories in your life, and in your mind... Love will nourish your soul even
through (especially through) the hardest times.
Take your time, don't rush things... Love
has its own timing and when it is right, with all its imperfections, it will
stand tall against the test of time... tall against life pressures...
And you? What is YOUR definition of love?
RosieSandz
