2016…365 days…
How do you start when you haven’t planned? How do you start the
first page of the new volume, the new segment of your life’s journey without a detailed
blueprint?
Volume 44 (if you could see me, you would see a big smile on
my face as I wrote 44)
This year is starting so differently.
Typically, the weeks and days preceding the New Year, I have
self reflected while taking into account all of my successes, shortcomings,
failures, and significant milestones. I look at how far I’ve come and decide if
I moved the needle, which is my life, toward “THE RIGHT “direction, or if I am at a standstill. Considering
where I am, mentally I take note of what in the following year has to be
accomplished and how will it manifest throughout that year. It’s very simple,
as soon as the ball drops at midnight on 12/31, I would already have a detailed
calendar and outlined plan of how the upcoming year will be a success in all
front.
But as I was saying, 2016 is going to be unique as I came to
the realization of 2 things while reflecting… So many things in my life that
have seemed of little significance when they happened, appeared to be of greater
importance as I walked in the growth of my journey. I took notice to them, and
when entering adulthood/womanhood/motherhood those insignificant “things”
turned into the goals that I needed to reach toward a better me. In the past 15
years these big goals/resolutions haven’t changed. Granted I had to adjust them,
but they remained the same. Throughout all the setbacks and the
accomplishments, I had to readjust them and this is when my first realization
came to light… the aha-moment…
Until the day I am no longer, these goals are not just meant
to be achieved, they are meant to guide me through my life journey… they are
the foundation, the basis of the person I want to be and the life I aspire to live.
My second realization came when I was reading this lovely
woman obituary (which she wrote and requested to be read upon her passing). She
was over 100 years old. She wrote: “So, I
was born; I blinked; and it was over. No buildings named after me; no monuments
erected in my honor. But, I DID have the chance to know and love each and every
friend as well as all my family members. How much more blessed can a person be?
So in the end,
remember, do your best, follow your arrow and make something amazing out of your
life. Oh, and never stop smiling”
I translate: Live
your life the best way you know how. Time is not on your side so maximize in
your enjoyment of life. Know the person you want to be, the life you want to
live and above all be responsible of your happiness…
I woke up on the first day of 2016 happy with how I now view
things…
So have I made some headway toward the person I’m ultimately
meant to be?
Well I hope so…I think so…No Actually I know so!
Here is what I’m taking with me as my most #2015LESSONLEARNEDDEARLY
In Love
4 years ago I wrote in one of my post “This journey has been a work in progress and in the scale of where I
want it to go and end, we are still at the early stage of our relation. Every
day God will allow me in this world I will pray that I enjoy “working” in
making it through the promise I made… Till Death Do Us Part…”
I've come to a place in my life where, I’m learning that
whatever my body, mind and heart desires, whatever makes my heart skip a beat
and smile, when given into, will only bring me true happiness.
Whether your "Ever After" is happy is pretty much
up to you. I have found that most of mine is happy. Is my life a fairy tale?
No, but it is a tale, my tale!
Today I’m here, working towards my ever after, feeling
blessed and appreciating all my happy moments, while working through the
challenging ones.
In Parenting
I’m ending 2015 with 2 teenagers, a boy and a girl. Both
with their own personalities and their interests which somehow manage to constantly
keep me on the edge. Not too long ago after hearing one of my kid crazy story, a
friend told me (while laughing hysterically), “Rose, you are not raising angels, please remember that”.
I have realized that parenting is single-handedly the
hardest and longest job that I will ever hold as it has no end. I can’t speak
on how I/we are doing when it comes to raising our kids nor the definite
essence of who our kids are or will turn out to be. This probably until it's
too late to change anything. So I enjoy every moments of their lives. I love
every moment with them. I love them in every moment. And in every moment I make
sure to remember that my best is all I have to give to them. There will be plenty
of guilt to go around but I will continue to wake up every day with one of my
lifetime goal of raising wonderful children.
In
Friendships/Relationships
“Keep your habits positive because your habits become your values.”
~Gandhi
With growth, experience or simply because of this thing call
life and its unpredictable pathway, friends will start having different needs,
different habits, and different paths. And one day you look back and realize
how distant you’ve grown, how different your values are.
It is at time difficult to accept that someone you had for a
big part of your life might not be there tomorrow, so you start thinking this
might be a good time to mend fences…
But don’t… Let it be… Let this be…
I have realized there are “battles” that are not meant to
be. It is okay to let go. Not because the relation is unimportant or minor, but
in the idea it is important to hold on and keep the memories of love, joy and
comfort you’ve shared as the lasting image. The
memories I'm taking with me now are so precious and have more value than all
the gold and silver in my jewelry box.
With age and experience it’s okay to tighten up your circle
and surround yourself with the people you love and inspire you the most, the
people who understand, encourage and accept the person you’ve become with no
judgment.
Overall, I have stepped into 2016 feeling lighter than
before. Not feeling that I was starting over but instead moving onward through
my path. I have taken the good and bad experiences of the prior year as dearly
learned life lessons and as shaping tools for the best me. There is no status
of limitations in achieving any goals or in becoming the best you, remember
time is only up when you are seven feet under!
Cheers to a Happy New Year!
RosieSandz
