Gracefully Growing… 15 Years in the Making.
“Her Smile makes me smile. Her laugh is infectious. Her
heart is pure and true.
Above all I love that she is my daughter”
~Unknown
As you may know by now, it has become tradition for me to
write (and post) something about your brother (and you), on each of your
birthdays. Although I haven’t sat and typed for my blog in about 7 months, I
couldn’t sit back and not celebrate you through the words swirling in my mind
while I think of you. However, while writing my emotions about you guys has
always been an easy task, this time I have tried and failed, numerous times, to
write down how I feel about you; my Jazzmenina.
I can’t help to think that, in my prior life, I must have
been so good to the world, to now be blessed with the two of you…
But you
Jazzy, I credit you for teaching me how expandable and limitless love can be...
When I was only your brother’s mom, I didn’t think it was possible to love any
other child with the passion and fierceness that I had for him.
Throughout my pregnancy, I worried and prayed God would not let me fail
you. When you finally – so quietly – joined us, my life got fuller, my heart
stretched out and made room where I thought there wasn’t any, and my world dramatically
got brighter.
You two have
created an endless love inside of me, so unbreakable, so unending, which brings
me purpose and joy, every day of my life.
During this last year, I have seen the most significant
changes in you. Physical changes of course, I see myself staring at you when
you are looking and when you are not looking and I can’t help to be marveled at
your beautiful face. But what makes me the most proud is me witnessing how your
inner beauty shines through. I am witnessing the growth of your mind, and of
your heart. Since a young age you have always been confident and comfortable
being you but not always willing to understand others. With the years you have
learned to share yourself and show compassion and empathy. You have grown into
an amazing young woman, you are that girl that I always wished I could be;
beautiful (inside and out), confident, AND smart…
I am so
incredibly proud of you because every expectation I set for you (and I know at
times they are set very high), you have never folded and have always worked to
achieve them. Know that I am your biggest cheerleader and I want all your
dreams to come true. I never want you to feel undeserving of anything, because
you deserve the absolute best that life has to offer and more…
I am so
incredibly proud of who you are Jazzy. Dad and I have been pressuring you to
let us know what present you would like for your birthday (or what you would
like to do) and tonight on the eve of your big 15th birthday you couldn’t come
up with an answer. Not because you couldn’t narrow down your options, but
because you truly feel like you don’t need anything. THAT makes me want to give
you the world…
As age is
creeping up on me I can’t help but wonder what the years ahead of me will look
like… How, and with what will they be filled with…? I can’t help but wonder who
will be holding my hands when my steps become uncertain and less reliable…
Unbeknownst
to you, my sweetheart, in your young age, you have managed to put my heart at
ease and made those worries just passing thoughts…
The millions of fleeting hugs, kisses and “I love you mommy”
you generously shower me EVERY DAY with, are engraved in my heart and soul. How
you so freely express your love shows me that you know love because you have experienced
love. That is the best gift from me to you and from you to me.
You are gracefully
growing so…
Remember
always how loved you are
Remember you
will always be my sweet baby
Remember you
will always be daddy’s little girl
Remember you
will always be your brother’s heart
Remember how
much you are important to our family
Happy, Happy
Happiest birthday my princess Jazzmine….. Wishing you a million days that reflect
the possibilities you know you are and that I see in you.
Love,
Mommy
(RosieSandz)